There is this needling, clawing, feeling that runs through me now and then.I have lost few of my good friends and opportunities just because i was trying hard to be loyal enough to my ideas and principles over being little open minded towards them. They way i used to communicate my ideas and principles also had lot to do with all the invaluable loss in my life.
Sometimes it gets so loud it feels like a snowball that started at the top of a long hill and the farther it rolls down the hill, the bigger and faster it goes. I take action. Start doing my best to dodge the scary thing, but maybe I should just sit down in its path and let it whack me, shake off the snow and cold and sift my way through the fear.
Sometimes i think maybe i need to go through this big loss to learn from that experience but it keeps happening like quick sand. I got nowhere to run and almost end up losing everything i had.
Fear of losing my closed ones and not having anyone around is one of my loudest emotions these days. There is hardly any one left by my side to see, share and enjoy my growth and success. History states that In the midst of fear many times there's something good waiting. I wish to discover that part of the life sooner than later.
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